Move On

Dear Readers,

The past week I feel all I’ve been doing is moving on.  I turned down a job.  I sent my last email to a pen pal.  I stopped texting the guy I have a crush on.

My heart aches.  I wish they reached out to me.  I don’t like moving on, but I don’t like the one chasing.  Anyone out there move on and feel the same way?

If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D

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First Impressions

Dear Readers,

When I came back to the desk, the guy I was paired with was gone.  I saw a post-it note on the computer monitor.  It had his name and phone number with a note to text him my number.  We are partners, so I didn’t interpreted more than it is–to let me know why he was away for such a a long time and to allow me to contact him if I needed help.  He’s such a nice guy offering other people help.  He’s confident, intelligent, and talented.  He’s everything that I am not.  I can only imagine he had a privileged background.

I prefer the modest lifestyle.  I don’t care for leather and pens.  I don’t need to be showered with gifts.  I enjoy the simple things in life like eating and quality time with others.  What about you?

If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D

I Feel Like a Teenager

Dear Readers,

I feel like a teenager with all the raging hormones.  I like him, and I can’t help it.  Yes, I texted him.  It was on something he would understand without much context.   I contemplated telling him I like him over text, but that would make things awkward between us if he doesn’t like me back.  Even if he does like me back, he might not want to admit it.  I am not sure how he’ll respond and if he’ll respond back.  It would be so much easier to know if he likes me if he was also the one initiating some of the texts instead of just being the one responding to my texts.  For all you relationship experts out there, what should I do?

If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D

Happy Birthday

Dear Readers,

Yes, I remembered my crush’s birthday.  Remember how I told you about how he sat almost directly across from me? I overheard him saying to another person that his birthday wasn’t that day (the day before mine), but it was a typo and actually a different day.  I don’t want to come off as creepy and text him “Happy birthday.”  He’ll wonder how I know. I need to exercise restraint and don’t text him anymore.  I can’t be the one always initiating conversations with him. Should I just move on?

If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D

I caved

Dear Readers,

I know I said I’m not going to text him again.  I can’t help it.  I’m weak.  I caved.  I think I saw him again. Why are some guys so weird?  Not sure why he hastened his walk.  Did he see me and wanted to avoid me? or he just didn’t like all the attention and wanted to retreat back to his seat.  I’m weird too I guess. After the event was over, I did the same exact thing and quickly left the building.  I didn’t want to meet eye to eye and make either of us uncomfortable.  After I got back to my apartment, I texted him that I think I saw him.  He hasn’t returned my text and confirmed it was him.  It’s not abnormal for him to take this long to get back to me. If I had a question, he usually returns my text the night of or night after (one time).  I’m pathetic for eagerly waiting for his text. I should just move on.  I’m tired of our missed encounters and texting him.  We can’t meet face to face and just talk.  What do you all think I should do?

I’m still figuring out what I am going to do post-grad now that plan A didn’t work out. This past weekend I sent a follow up email, reached out to the district manager, and browsed the web for jobs.  I sort of have a plan Z. I say sort of, because it’s not in writing. I say plan Z, because it’s my last choice. It’s so exhausting to have multiple plans.

If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D

I Like You

Dear Readers,

“I like you” are three of the hardest words to say, because there’s a possibility that the person does not feel the same way and then things will be awkward between the two parties.

No one has ever come up to me and utter those words.  However, there was this one guy who took every opportunity to talk and be close to me.  He made it apparent that he liked me.  My peers could tell.  They teased me about it.  I was repulsed by his lack of work ethic.  I kept pushing him away.  From what I heard, he has a history of being flirtatious.  I wasn’t special.

How can you tell if someone “likes” you if he isn’t flirtatious?

I’m bad at reading people. There is this guy who started saying hi to me every chance he sees me.   I had a crush on him at first because how friendly he was with everyone around him.  My crush for him wore off after realizing how laid back and easy going he was. Shortly after I told my friend that I didn’t have a crush on him anymore, he was in a relationship.  He was probably tired of pursuing me (maybe it’s all in my head? haha).  I made it clear I didn’t like him that way by mingling with other people and walking a different path when I could have easily walked the same path as him that one day.

There is another guy who sat almost directly across from me, but he didn’t utter one word to me except to make sure I had my utensils. I have a crush on him, but I don’t know if he had a crush on me too.  I randomly saw him at the airport.  At first, I didn’t recognize him, so I didn’t say anything.  We crossed paths a couple times, and I knew for sure it was him.  That was a good excuse for me to text him to see if it was him.  Unfortunately, he said he didn’t see me.  If he liked me, he would’ve noticed me.  I could have sworn our eyes met a couple times!  It would have been messed up if he did see me and didn’t say hi though. Maybe that’s why he said he didn’t see me? Over the course of one month I randomly texted him a couple times to engage in small talk.  I don’t think I’ll text him again. What do you all think I should do?  I don’t want to be like that guy from the first story.  I am not as bold as Anna Akana.  I don’t pursue my crushes.  Besides, I’m not ready for a relationship. I’m still figuring out what I am going to do post-grad.

If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D

Our Choice

Dear Readers,

We have a choice.  Who and what we make time for is dependent on us.  We can text back right away or not or not at all.  Unfortunately, I have been on the end that don’t get a text back for a long time or not at all. I have two stories to share to you all!

Story #1: Do I matter? When a person gets back to me 3-4 days after the invite and event telling me that he/she have plans set to look for apartment, he/she obviously planned this after I sent him/her the invite.  If this person had texted me back the day I sent out the invite, I would have been somewhat okay with that excuse.  However, I would have wondered why he/she couldn’t stop by a little bit or go apartment hunting a little earlier/later.  Even if he/she had a legitimate excuse, if I mattered, a simple “I wish you have fun.” or “Let me make it up to you. Let’s hang some other day.”

Story #2: I used to have a friend who I vent to about practically all the problems in my life.  This past year I’ve text her a lot, but she rarely text me back.  Maybe she’s busy and going through something?  This does not seem to be the case.  She text me back when she was curious about something I said relating to my (lack of) love life.  It makes me wonder if she cares about my actual problems.  Even if she is busy, a simple text back like “Hey, a lot is going right now. Just because I don’t respond doesn’t mean I don’t read your texts.” would be nice.

I will probably not text them or send an invite to them for a long time. What do you all think? Am I harsh?  I hate celebrating birthdays. It’s just a reminder that I am a year older.  Since I’m away from home and it’s an excuse to get together with some colleagues, I made an exception this year but celebrate it early so they don’t know the actual day. If I matter to the people from story #1 and #2, I would have heard from both in a timely matter regarding a once in a year occasion.

For all you curious readers out there, I will share about my (lack of) love stories in my next post.  If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D

 

I am a Nobody

Dear Readers,

If you can’t talk, then you can’t get anywhere in life.  You’re a nobody.

That was a paraphrase of what a family member said to me.

The truth stings.  Yup, I am a nobody.   I got my first rejection post-interview after sending a follow up email.  It’s easier to blame outside factors such as admitting I was pursuing a residency (and thus making them my second choice) or not receiving a good recommendation from a past preceptor.  The truth was I didn’t do that well in the interview.  I should have gone into the interview more confident and polished with what I was going to say.  Every question I asked, she said it’s about communication.  I should have taken that as a hint.  I didn’t communicate well throughout most of the interview, and I was not going to be offered a job.

After this interview, I had an interview with a different company.  I felt good about it.  My answers to their questions were polished.  I haven’t heard back though, so I don’t know. Maybe my examples weren’t that good?  Maybe where I want to work had no openings?

Finally, I had my residency interview.  It consisted of a clinical and a nonclinical interview.  I might have missed some stuff or there might have been a better recommendation.  For the most part, I felt I did well on the clinical interview. I showcased the depth of my knowledge.  The nonclinical interview was tough.  I don’t like talking about myself and exposing my weaknesses.

The truth is I don’t have a clear picture of who I am and what I want to do.  I know that I need experience and know more to accomplish more.

What have you all been up to?  Any good or bad news?  If you would like to share, please comment!

If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D

Life Update

Dear Readers,

I haven’t written on wordpress for over a year! You all deserve an update on my life.

  1. I changed my blog’s theme. Check it out! I’m lovin’ it.
  2. I’m on my last year. I finished two rotations and am now on my third rotation. It feels like a full time job, because I’m there about 40 hr/ week.
  3. I’m a freelance writer for an online healthcare website. If I could do this for a living, I would, but producing a lot of content is difficult.
  4. I’m job hunting and working on residency application.  My ideal job would be working for a company where I can be part of a creative team to collaborate and come up with something awesome to share to the public.
  5. One of my future rotations got cancelled, so I am working with my school to find a replacement.
  6. I’m looking for a temp place to stay for my last two rotations.
  7. I’m trying to earn as much money as I can to pay for residency applications and upcoming conference registration, travel, and hotel cost.

 

There’s a lot going on in my life right now. Sigh. I will try to write again if there is any new exciting news . What’s going on in your life? If you would like to share, please comment!

If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D

Building Rapport

Dear Readers,

I hope you all have been doing well.  I am working (well, actually I’m interning) full time.  If you all are still wondering, yes, my feet still hurt the end of the day.  Other than the weekends and evening hours, I do not have much free time.  Nevertheless, I am learning a lot, so I don’t mind the long hours.

Something I’ve learned these past couple of weeks is that nobody wants to be unnoticed or unappreciated.  Let’s just say I know this, because I experienced it.  A simple thank you, expression of gratitude or compliment, hello, and goodbye goes a long way to making a person feel good.  I don’t know why, but the statement “people like hearing their names” is true.  For me, at least.  “Hi Catherine,” “Bye Catherine,” and “Thanks Catherine.”  The insertion of the person’s name adds a personal touch.  I like it!  Bonus points for remembering what the person said and asking about it or referring back to it in a current conversation!  Maybe it’s just me?  I am a very observant person.  I take notice of and remember what others say.  I know the awkward feeling of saying something you think is super awesome or of great importance to you and the other person does not responds with anything or responds with a one word response.  Empathize!  I can’t stress that enough.  It sucks to pour your heart out about a problem to someone only for that someone to be apathetic and not say much or anything.  Remember!  Don’t empathize to the point that you talk way too much about yourself.  Refocus the conversion back to the person you are conversing with.

If any of you readers have any school-related or life-related questions, please let me know!

Until next time, make good choices and live a healthy lifestyle.

Catherine D.